Life is confusing. but i guess that's what keeps us going. the hope that maybe one day things won't be as confusing and that we will finally get some sort of grasp on how to not only live but live life fully. Lately ive been struggling with somethings in my life. as you may have read in an earlier blog i am in a relationship. that relationship recently turned into an engagement. yeah, yeah i know. im 23, getting married isnt something most people would want to do at this age but honestly i think it is what's best for me. alot of people have opinions and i listen and take heed to everything that is being said but in the end the decision is mine. and i have decided that on june 5 of this year i will be MARRIED!!! yay!! hug kisses love and all that over gushy ish.
but wait. whats going to happen with my dream. modeling. ummmmm......ive ran this quesiton through my head over and over and it frightens me to think that i would have to put modeling on hold or stop completely because im getting married. i would like to believe that i will be able to continue my dream full force. just not at this particular moment. i mean i have alot to do: plan a wedding, keep up with school, work and over insignificant but equally important things. i feel that im out growing alot of things that used to excite me but i guess that comes with maturity(getting old lol). i know that things are not going to be easy because they never are, im just happy that i won't have to go through life alone anymore.
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